Sometimes I make mistakes and sometimes those mistakes are so big I do not want to face them. I feel like I would just like to leave everything behind and start fresh in some other place. As if the mistake I have made have somehow rotted the very place I occupy and the foul stench of decay is in my nose all the time. So I start over in a new fresh place, with no offensive odours. Again and again.
Then one day I realised.
Despite the distances I have travelled, I wasn't moving anywhere.
For to start over is like dying and being born again, never taking responsibility for the past.
For every new start, what has been is utterly erased, eaten away by the guilt you have. And when you feed guilt, it grows, despite your best efforts to leave it far behind, until it, like a virus, eats everything within you.
Rather than to start over again and again, you have to take responsibility for and learn to embrace the mistakes you make, absorbing them into yourself with the new knowledge you possess.It is proof of your growth, your movement forward.
True learning and insight, can only come from accepting and understanding what has come before.
Be proud of your mistakes, for they only, will move you forward.
This is very true and very much a way of living. Taking responsibility is the path to wisdom.
ReplyDeleteyes, for we are "standing on the shoulders of giants" even if they might be ourselves sometimes...
DeleteWOW this is so true this speaks to me it reminds me of people who have done mistakes and run away from them never owning up or thinking they will be fine if they run away but in the end your never getting anywhere and your mistakes and past will come back to haunt you in the end it's just best to accept them no matter how difficult it is
ReplyDeleteexactly, when you think you have escaped they will only come back in the end...
Deleteta-meaut good to hear from you again hehe xxxx
DeleteIts good to be back!
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