Poem "twofold"

my love is not like your love at all

your love is

undivided

generous

undemanding

you never hold back

and you don't expect anything from me

while

my love is

small perfectly placed portions

constraining myself within invisible borders

and demand a return

and whilst I unwittingly hold back

I wish, I wish I could be like you

for you deserve so much, so much

but I am so afraid

of losing myself

in the love I have for you

for it is far stronger than me

and much more generous than me

and it is far, far more worthy than me

so please

don't let me go

but try to see my heart

nestled in this concrete of my self

and one day I am sure

it will wither and give back

a thousandfold

what you deserve