Pillow Book "Relief"

What is it that makes certain words weigh on us, while certain words lighten us?

How can a word make you heart press together in pain.

How can a word make the blood flow faster in your veins in relief.

and how can the same word change your disposition from moment to moment?

Hello

Goodbye

Go

Stay

Pillow Book "human behaviour"

Today, as I was lying in my hospital bed, I overheard a conversation between a sick elderly woman and her doctor.

The doctor was explaining to her that she did not have the physical, or mental, capability of returning home soon but that they were trying to find a resting home that would take care of her for some time. The woman was very upset with this and demanded to be returned home immediately, because her 40 year old son, that was still living at home, would not be able to eat properly if she was not there. Of course her arguments were nullified by the doctor, who had no concern for her son, but for his patient. Yet he tried to explain to her that SHE was the one that was sick, not her son, but that they could arrange so he would be able to visit her very regularly and even eat with her. (A very generous offer, I think myself.)

Of course the woman kept pleading and crying and saying that she could under no circumstances leave her son alone. She had to be there for him.

After many minutes of the doctor trying to comfort her , she finally exclaims:

"If you won't let me return home right now, then I will kill myself!"

At which point I laughed so hard I had a coughing fit and had to be helped by the nurse.

When I had recovered I thought to myself, how utterly ridiculous people can be in their reasoning. The woman was extremely upset that she would be living in a place where her son could come and visit and even eat with her, while she was taken care of properly. Yet, she didn't get even slightly upset by the idea of taking her own life - which would undoubtedly leave the son COMPLETELY and UTTERLY alone without ANYONE to care for him.

Maybe this is the complication of humanity, and the reason there will never be any humanics*.

There simply is no logic to human behaviour!

quote from Björk

Humanics* is the qualitative science of human behaviour that the robot Giskard in Asimov's robot novels, is trying to develop.

"happy fangirl" look here!

I recently got a very nice comment from a fan of my SKKS fanfiction "Creep", but for some strange reason the comment doesn't show on the page.

Therefore I would like the permission from "happy fangirl" to add it to my comments on the page, and as a treat I would like to dedicate my next SKKS fanfiction with Ha in Soo and Gu Yong Ha to her. I am thinking of a really smutty piece with an unusual pairing not often found in SKKS fanfictions...

So just send me a comment and I will get right on it!

By the way, "happy fangirl" you really made me very happy with your praise, you really inspire me to write more.

Poem "human V"

When you are giving up,

when you have given all you can give.

When you think "I cannot take another step..."

...there is at least ONE more step in you...

Take it...

Hope on a string

Today I stumbled across a most beautiful and heartwrenching webcomic on Deviantart "Knite" by Yuumei.

Its highly estethically rendered with a most captivating story, please read it.